Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Even after a year good bye is still hard....

I'm kind of at a loss for words...
I still don't know how to process this whole thing, you know the part where I tell myself that your gone. The part where I try to still come to terms with it all.  I'm not sure I can do that...

It's been a whole year, a year without those weekly phone calls, a year without the surprise snail mail of how your doing or pictures from when I was little, a year since my last birthday card, a year since I've been able to hear stories from when I was little, a year without texting you pictures of the girls.  A whole year has passed that you've missed out on that you should still be here for!  It's not fair.  Now as I'm sitting here writing, tears are coming down my face, the burning of my mascara, I don't want to believe that you've been out of my life for a whole year.

This year has been hard, I cant call you and get advise or call to complain about something.  I miss you more everyday and I feel like you've missed out on so much.  There's so much that I wish I could share with you.  As much as it still hurts my heart everyday that your gone, I still have all the AMAZING memories I was able to share with you.  All the late nights staying up at your house, sneaking popsicles and watching scary movies that would later give me nightmares.  Taking road trip adventures up to the mountains and exploring through caves or around Big Trees, which will forever be my favorite place.  I try to remember all the good times we had together and not let the bad ones of your final days creep into my head.

I can never express fully how incredibly thankful I will forever be that my parents made the drive from CO to MT to pick up my grandpa and then make the drive to CA so that my grandpa could be at my wedding.  Being able to spend that time with him on my special day will be something I cherish forever.  Being able to look back on these pictures of us together will always be my favorite.  I wish I had more pictures with my grandpa but he was always the one behind the camera, maybe that's where I get my love for photography from.  He loved taking pictures and I always loved the surprise photography books he would send me.  Having him by my side at my wedding, is something that I know will never be taken away from me.

I hate that he lived so far away and that as I was older I didn't get to see him as much.  I wish that my girls got to spend time with him and do all the fun things with him that I did when I was little.  I wish that they got to experience those amazing memories too.  But I keep them alive by telling my girls about it and taking them back to those same places. 

After my grandpa died, ladybugs became an almost everyday constant, like it was him coming to visit me.  Knowing that I still needed him and that I still needed to feel like he was still around. He passed away and then 2 weeks later we moved back to CA and for a whole month after a ladybug would come visit me while I sat out by Jason's parents pond.  It would land on me and stick around for at least 10 minutes before flying off.  I felt a sense of calm come over me when I would see one.  As the months went on he would come less often and I think he knew when I needed him cause he would be there.  It's been awhile since I've seen him and I wish I was still able to see him daily but I'll take the occasional visits.  I enjoy my short and sweet visit with him the other day while we were at the park, he flew in landed on my hand and then flew off.  It made me smile.

Gramps, I miss you everyday and wish that cancer didn't take you from us.  You still had a lot of life to live but I guess it was your time.  I have to accept that and I'm trying but it's really hard.  I love you a lot and will never ever forget you.

Thursday, February 18, 2016

I am your Valentine!

"The best & most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched --
they must be felt with the heart"
Valentine's Day is right around the corner and I'm not one to get super mushy and gushy.
We don't really celebrate, my husband doesn't like to buy flowers because its a waist of money to him because the flowers die, but you know what I like to get them every once in awhile!  I mean what girls doesn't love getting flowers!? We don't spend money on getting things for the girls either, I mean they might get a sucker and to them that's the coolest thing ever!
Even if we don't celebrate with elaborate gifts we do celebrate by wearing some adorable clothes! DUH....
Neverland Crew Clothing had a huge hit with her adorable Darth Vader "I am your Valentine" tee in heather red and heather pink.  These tees were a huge hit and extremely adorable!  If your still on the hunt for a Valentine's Day head over to site and snag one, they are ready to ship and you can use code KENDALL10 to save 10% at check out.  They come in sizes infant up to youth!
Outfit Details:
Faux Leather Leggings Rhinestones & Tutus
Patch Knee Leggings Little Adi Co


Saturday, February 13, 2016

All the HEART eyes for you

" No one else will ever know the strength of my LOVE for you after all, you are the only one who knows what my HEART sounds like from the inside"
For the past year and half we have had the honor of working with some of the most amazing small businesses.  Brand Repin' found us and we haven't looked back since.  I love the friendships I've formed with amazing shop owners & other mamas.  These amazing shops have kept my girls looking extremely cute.  Taking pictures has become second nature to Kendall.  All 3 girls are reps but its' mainly Kendall. 
I let her decide, if she wants to take pictures then we take pictures.  I don't want to make it a job, I want it to be fun for her.  She's gotten into a rhythm, we put her outfit on, we head outside (I try to shoot outside for the awesome natural light), I put music on and she dances her way through the shoot.  I love her personality in each shoot we do.  Sometimes a shoot will start out awesome with smiles and silly faces and then head with attitude and pouty faces!  But you know what, sometimes those pouty faces work out perfect!  Taking pictures of her almost daily gives me the perfect excuse to bust out my big girl camera and get some amazing shots of my girls that I just love.  I've gotten some of the most favorite pictures while shooting for shops. 
" You are unique, You are funny, You are stunning, You are you! You are intelligent, You are amazing, You are talented, You are a gift from above"
Thank you to all the amazing shops, we love working with you (past & present)


Outfit Details:
Nom Nom Tee: Mason Blake Apparel
Bracelets: June & Penny
Flower Tattoo: Ducky Street

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Oh you so fancy...

"Your eyes are the sweetest stars I've ever seen"
Happy February, it's love month and we celebrate it all month and every month after that.  We aren't really big on celebrating with gifts or flowers...were all about showing love to one another!
Cutey Patuteys Boutique sent us this adorable dress for love day.  If your looking for an adorable, sparkly & tulle dress then this the perfect one.  It can be worn even after love day, it would also be perfect for birthdays or any holidays.  The love the lace detail on the back and Kendall loves that it's sparkly.  Its the perfect addition to any girly girls closet. 
"When I tell you I love you, I don't say it out of habit or to make conversation.  I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me"

Outfit Details:
Heart boho headband: Danicas Chic Bowtique
Necklace: Love Blooms Here
Moccs: Hello Mess
Red Sparkle Bow: Shelby Chic Boutique
Glasses: Subsidy Shades

Monday, February 1, 2016

ROWR Hungry....

Around every day at the same time, 11am Kendall turns into this bear and is whines...
"I'm Hungry!"  I know every mom with a toddler knows what I'm talking about!  When toddlers are hungry they turn into crazy wild animals. 

With my girls, they will eat breakfast and then 30-45 minutes later there already talking about what's for lunch and that there hungry.  I tell them there not hungry they are just bored and to go play!  This shirt describes Kendall perfectly!  If your looking for adorable tees for your little one check out Huckleberry Threads and if your looking for an extremely cute skirt (that goes with everything) then head to Taylor Joelle Designs for this skirt and so much more!  You wont be disappointed with either shop.


Outfit Details:
Hat: Target (3 years ago)
Shirt: Huckleberry Threads
Skirt: Taylor Joelle Designs
Shoes: Weesqueak
Fur Vest: Target (last year)