Friday, September 16, 2011

My Night from HELL!

After the night I had I just want to give up sleep training and go back to my old routine, but I'm not going to...I know I need to be strong and consistent for this to work.  She went to bed good, she drank her bottle and I was sitting with her in the chair reading to her and she fell asleep before I was done reading.  She fell asleep around around 9pm and woke back up at 12:45am. 

Really only 3 hours and 45 minutes!?!

Aaaahhhh makes me want to scream and cry.  So for the next hour and fourty five minutes I try to put her to sleep, in the process one of the many times she stood up thinking it was time to play she fell and fit her face on the edge of the bed.  I picked her up to make sure she wasn't bleeding and to give her hugs, I knew at this point when I lay her back down she's going to flip out.  Which she did! She would stand up and I would lay her down and she would cry and cry and cry.  She did a lot of crying.  In that hour and fourty five minute period I didn't give her a bottle with water I was trying to do without, well after all that time I broke down and gave her a 4oz bottle of water.  Of course she couldn't get her little lips on that nipple fast enough.

I dont know if by me giving her the bottle if I'm defeting the whole purpose.  Should I not be giving her a bottle?  I don't know if I'm doing this right or not!?!

After 2 long hours you would think this kid would be tired, NO she was standing in her crib talking and hitting the wall.  So I lay her down and stand over her crib for 10 minutes patting her back (hoping & praying she just goes to sleep).  Her eyes are wide open.  After that 10 minutes her eyes slowly start closing.  I'm thinking YAY she's finally asleep or so I thought.  I lay down in bed and she pops back up, I lay her down and pat her back and at this point I'd had enough and I broke down in tears.  At this point its 3am and I'm like do I cave in and bring her in bed with me so I can get some kind of sleep or do I just leave her in her crib ot jibber jabber?!?  I left her there and it's so hard to fall asleep with her talking away and hitting her bed.  OMG!!!

So did I cave or did I leave her to fall asleep on her own when ever???


I'm sorry people I just couldn't do it anymore.  It had been over 2 hours and I felt bad for my hubby who had to be up at 6am for work.  Plus I was thinking if I don't get some sleep how will I be able to function cause I also need to take care of a toddler not just Keira.  I know I shouldn't have caved in but I just couldn't do it anymore.  I brought her in bed with me and she was asleep within 10 minutes!  REALLY?  Once she was asleep I put her back in her bed and at around 3:20 I was finally able to crawl into bed and try to go back to sleep. 

She was back up at 7am this morning.
After last night I am so tired this morning and don't know if I can handle another night of that.

I wish I read this quote last night! 
Here's to hoping we have a really good day!


  1. ugh...sound awful! She's very persistent LOL

    Can you put her to bed in a pack and play somewhere farther away from your bedroom? I don't's hard but like I said I just kinda went cold turkey with Brielle. I felt like that was less stressful on her than going back and forth. So the night I did it I didn't do any back patting or rocking or anything. I would periodically give her a paci but that seemed to piss her off even more, so I just totally let her cry it out. She's not permanently traumatized that I'm aware of ;-)


  2. Aww, I'm sorry you had such a rough night. I don't have any good advice, but just wanted to tell you that you shouldn't feel bad that you caved. Only you know what's best for you and your family. I pray that it gets better and soon! You're doing great and I think you're awesome for sharing her sleep struggles. I don't like reading blogs that make motherhood seem perfect all the time. Saying a prayer for you!

    Mrs. Mommy

  3. I've been wanting to write you all week, but I've been soooo crazy that I haven't been on the computer for longer than 5 minutes a day. LL has ALWAYS had sleep issues. Typically, we have a major issue about every 6 months. What we've found is consitency - which is so hard! With LL we have to make a decision and STICK TO IT! It's really hard for us because she's extremely strong willed. So when we dig our feet in, she does too! This past sleep issue lasted for 4 weeks! She started waking up in the middle of the night screaming for us and would only sleep if we were in her room. But we refuse to sleep in her bed OR let her in ours, so that meant lots of hours laying on her floor. Not cool! Especially with two parents who work full time jobs! But we stuck to it and it slowly started to get better.

    Have you thought about doing a dream feed with her? We had to do one with LL until she was about 11 months. Here's a link to what it's all about:

    Keep us posted on how it's going!

  4. My friends moved the baby's crib out of their bedroom and into the hallway LOL...their kids have to share a room as well so they didn't want to move the baby into the other room. She KNOWS you are there so thats why she doesnt give up! I would suggest trying to move her into another area!